It may be possibly due to my DNA and rearing but I am a loner. Loners get lonely too and I busy myself with much activity. How lonely would I be without my children? Very. I had four children who have blessed me with nine grand children and nine great grand children. I love them all and am so proud of them.
My children are good to me. I am grateful. I receive so much love and support from my children all the time. May God bless them. I believe that we are growing closer together as I grow old. I will be old pretty soon. I will be 87 next July 20.
I want to let my descendants know that I really love them and appreciate them. I ponder often about how I rate as a father. If 100 is perfect, I would say that I rate around 70. I know that I fell short on expressed love and companionship. Like I have indicated it is the way I am. My make up is too much a loner. I was raised lonely. My Mother passed away when I was five. I was the youngest of nine. My next oldest sibling was four years older than me. All my other siblings were busy with their own lives during my formative years. I was quite a bit on my own. When the time came I welcomed having my own family but was not the best possible father.
My advice to fathers is to be loving and put in the time required to be a real friend. I see lots of very good fathers in my life here.
I've always been glad that you were my daddy and my only regret was that you couldn't have been home more. Being an extreme loner myself, I can identify with some of your thoughts. No child gets a perfect parent, no matter how hard we try or how much we want to be one for them. I love you. Nancy Ann
ReplyDeleteI am sorry my job kept me away so much. I would not do it that way again. I love you.
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